Always Deconstructing

I can’t always feel, so I write to get my thoughts out in the moment and feel them later. 

pexels-nina-uhlikova-725255

It’s the 2nd of January, 2024. I just got home from work. I’m mildly ill. It’s cold, dark, windy and rainy outside. But guess what?! I feel content. I’ve been …

pexels-kelly-l-2950003

What does it mean to "feel at home"? To me, it means I can exist, speak and act, without fear of judgement or ridicule. I feel safe; shielded from the …

pexels-pixabay-276259

When I turned 22, I was under the impression that much of my self-identity was flimsy. I felt that I had no solid sense of self outside of the collective …

pexels-nita-54300

My Dream 26th

As I start this new year of life, I feel a strong sense of hope. So I think it best to write out my vision for this year while my …

pexels-pixabay-533671

This is 26.

For the longest time, I listened to the hollow, yet inescapable, taunts of the creepy voice in my head that persistently told me I wouldn’t live past the age of …

prison

Locked up but the door's open Prison's cosy; familiar territory Rules, duties, obligations; noted Bed by the window, view is great I see an inmate unlike myself The walls of …

dance

Dear Self, If no one expects anything from you, you're free to do a whole lot more. The possibilities are endless, parameters removed. You can pursue just about anything with …

off my neck

There's lots of warnings against peer pressure - a famed weapon of mass destruction. "Don't let anyone pressure you into doing something you don't want to!" they say. "Don't feel …

free in the dark

You are the loudest in the room, but never heard You are the tallest in the room, but never seen You are surrounded on every side, yet so alone Should …

who was she

She's in my thoughts. I see her in my dreams. Most days she feels like a vivid memory. Too real to be imagined; her face, her hair, her skin, her …